It's not that I...

[She pauses and swallows a lump in her throat.]

I know people have it worse than me, hell I've got it pretty good compared to a lot of them, so maybe this is supposed to be my one really bad day to make up for it. I dunno.

[And another drink, because she knows she won't be able to talk about much of anything without it right now.]

Hey... d'ya mind... listening to me rant a little? It'll probably be a pain in the ass to listen to, so you don't have to...