Katina Tarask (
grandtheftmecha) wrote2010-06-20 09:57 pm
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Father's Day...
[Katina took all of Father's Day off, and has been doing her own thing. Now, in the evening, she sits on a bench on top of the tower. She has two bottles with her that she's taken a few small sips out of as she looks up into the sky.]
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because he totally wasn't looking for her,Viral found Katina at her hideout on the roof. Seeing the look on her face, he quietly walked over and sat down on the bench next to Katina. Viral folded his arms and waited in silence.]no subject
...hey.
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[He sighs, and watches the sky. If Katina wanted to talk, she'd talk. Viral wasn't one to press these things.]
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You know what today is? Not somethin' that'd really matter to you, I guess, but... hell, what do I know?
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[Viral pauses this time.]
No, it doesn't really matter to me.
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I really should get over it... but every time it's about to roll around, stupid shit happens. Every fucking time.
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[She pauses and swallows a lump in her throat.]
I know people have it worse than me, hell I've got it pretty good compared to a lot of them, so maybe this is supposed to be my one really bad day to make up for it. I dunno.
[And another drink, because she knows she won't be able to talk about much of anything without it right now.]
Hey... d'ya mind... listening to me rant a little? It'll probably be a pain in the ass to listen to, so you don't have to...
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[He leans back, clasping his hands behind his head. Wasn't listening to her rant part of the territory now, anyway?]
Of course not. Hit me.
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And if she could read minds she'd ask him what territory that was.]...hell, now where do I start?
Huh...
Terrible at this kinda thing but here goes. I was born and raised in Detroit. Probably doesn't mean much to you, but it's a big ol' dirty city, not the nicest place. Have an older brother, my mom... had my dad... so things were better than they could've been.
I was real close to my dad. Playing games or sports, going to him when I had a problem... textbook 'daddy's little girl.'
[She knew she was off on a tangent already, but it seems easier this way. Taking yet another swig of whiskey has a similar effect.]
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My dad... he was scared as hell to see his daughter going off to war, especially since I wanted to see the frontlines, but... he supported me. He knew I'd made up my mind, so he supported me the best he could. It was... hell. I was so damn young, and I'd never killed anyone, but I made it through... fuck, I got myself promoted for doing what I did. Hurt like hell though, probably screwed with me more than I figured. My dad was there for me again when things were hard... but... it...
[She pauses to take a breath.]
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I got some help from a few friends... from my reputation... to get into pilot school. They needed more, so I got fast-tracked into test pilot school... things got a little... difficult for me.
[She pauses again, but only briefly so she can get it all out at once.]
I got obsessed with what I was doing. The military didn't tell me to stop, figured I could pull through, they needed... needed more people. Dad saw it though, knew it wasn't healthy. We fought a lot then... not just, you know, rebellious kid stuff, but really... getting at each other. I was... such a bitch to him...
Cut myself off from my family for a while... figured I didn't need 'em... could do it all myself... I-I was... tough, and everyone around me knew it... stopped checking my mail, got a new phone number... ignored everything about 'em for months...
[At this point, she takes a longer break to steady herself, blaming the whiskey that she really didn't drink much of.]
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Damned... damned alcohol is all...
[She rubs at her face a little, pressing on.]
He... while I was ignoring them... he had a heart attack. Doc said it was stress... mom couldn't... afford to hold off the funeral either... got in... touch with me a week... later.
[Katina turns away with her eyes clenched shut, suddenly embarrassed for going off like this.]
Damned whiskey...
[She still hasn't really had very much of it.]
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Well... that sucks.
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...yeah... yeah, it fucking sucks like hell.
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Look. I'm probably one of the worst people to be talking to about this, and I have no idea what kind of man your father was.
... But I doubt he'd be at all happy over you moping like this over him. Shit happens.
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You are... heh... a pretty awful choice, aren't you?
[She doesn't look happy but she's also not crying, though tear stains are still visible.]
Dunno why I talk to you at all... tellin' me to just... just get over it...
[She grabs a handful of his outfit.]
But dammit... you're probably right.
[She isn't letting go though - she might still want to punch him.]
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You knew what you were getting into, talking to me.
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Yeah. I didn't want... any stupid pop-psych routines... or a pity party. Guess I coulda gone to Mao for this too... but... I'm glad you came. Really. Thanks.
[She just... lets her hand fall. She'd embarrass herself if she hit him right now.]
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Oh thank god she didn't hit him.Viral sighs, leaning back against the bench now that he was free of her grip.]Don't mention it.
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I can shut up now, if you want.
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At least that's what I think, maybe I'm just crazy.
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